"What is she feeling, and what is she thinking about how she feels?"

(In case you don't know what this title is referring to: click here. You won't regret it.)

THINKING.

We all do it.

Whether we want to or not.

{Think} about it. How many times do you {think} you say the word

{THINK} in a day?

How many times does someone start a sentence with:

"I think..."

or:

"I've been thinking..."

All the time.

We're taught that thinking is the key to success. In school, that's all we do. Think. How do you complete a difficult math problem (heaven forbid)? You think it through. You think through how you'll outline a paper. You plan out your day, what you'll wear, what you'll do. What is planning, really?

THINKING.

Am I wearing out the word, yet?

What I'm trying to get at here, is that thinking is like breathing. Everyone does it, even if you don't realize it's going on. You can't think about not thinking. Because you're still thinking. Think, think, think.

Here's a [thought].

What if I don't want to {think} anymore? What if I'm sick of tossing and turning at night because I can't lasso my thoughts to where I can actually do a different kind of thinking: dreaming.

At least in my dreams all I have to do is wake up, and nightmares are over. I don't have to deal with the problems anymore.

(That sounded emo and dramatic.
I'm happy, I promise.
There is sunshine in my life.)

Let's put it this way: have you seen 500 Days of Summer? (If you haven't, see it.) There is a scene in there where Tom, the main character, envisions the expectations of a particular party. When he arrives, we see those expectations directly shown next to the reality of the situation, which, as usual, is worse.

This is the problem with {thinking}.

We're left alone with our thoughts and we fantasize how we want something to be, or how we want something to turn out. We want everything to be perfect and to go as planned. We want to look someone in the face and tell them exactly what we've been {thinking}.

And it never happens.


If your nervous, someone says, "Just don't think about it."


Remember what I said?


As much as you try...{THINKING}...never stops.

Bummer.